.....and here he is,aching tooth.Hi Andrew and dear friends!!!It so happened that one started,and came to another.Once matured the need to share their experiences,results of the work done in terms of personal development that emerged in the course of questions,I "happened" to be here on this forum.A few months ago I decided,once again, to improve yourself,personal development.Started with restore vision by the method of Bates(childhood myopia is 3.5)...started and after some time again came to the conclusion(as had happened before,but I did not bring it started to..),I just need to deal with their inner feelings,aspirations....with our inner world in short.I spent the introspection features of his character that prevent me to fulfill your potential in this world.It was not easy,constantly "be"things that distract from the classes themselves.Pretty big list,but I weed out a lot and left the fundamental(according to my inner feelings).Here it is:1.I don't know,or rather can't understand YOUR place in this world.I simply don't know what I want to do (awareness of the usefulness of self-realization is present,and then...
)2.Irresponsibility around,shifting on someone else's shoulders,finds the edge, etc. 3.Lack of confidence in their capabilities.4.Passivity(read No. 2)fear of taking responsibility.5.Nervousness,irritability,CONSTANT internal tension,mistrust,fear.6.Confusion,confusion,de-concentration,7.Pessimism(when you create an image of possible outcomes,first looking for that may fail,"negative"in pictures.8,.Haste,haste(relationship with internal napryajenie,I ALMOST ALL the TIME somewhere in a HURRY...Now what?Even(noticed)when you sleep!!!Traces of lead in childhood.....Just came up with the idea.I have a child with a lot of internal energy,I excitable person and worth come to mind some sort of "any"thoughts....I think I might explode from the energy that broke me and it splashing everywhere,I start to fuss,the desire to do everything at once but...maybe she does not find proper application,so to speak "point of application",I allowed it everywhere but not in the right direction...the block that bothers.The fact is that since childhood I have a very complicated relationship with my father since I can remember.feelings for him are different,but mostly negative....Well,I began to ponder where all this "good" and found myself in my childhood,the recollections,the most vivid impressions and emotions.Many things fell into place,there was interdependence between negative traits and.......So my little brother(younger than me by 4 years)and mothers always waited for my father in the evening,after work.When it is delayed(often)we started to worry,nervous.Dad came tipsy(we knew if delayed),raised us(even when we sleep),started to read "lectures"on various topics,to analyze our actions and behavior,and later studies(diaries!!!).We often flew"strap",and often the cuffs on the head(when you regularly beat-there is a strong internal tension,but it is especially bad when you expect that you can at any time to hit hard),the voltage was always when we were just waiting,we are very much afraid of his father,his"just"punishment.THAT's when I learned how to lie and shift the blame for the"deed"to his brother,to avoid punishment.Tink.TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR THEIR DEEDS-PUNISHED....to avoid responsibility-to avoid punishment.Further more.10 years ago was training Marika Khazin,deconstructing negative beliefs.....sitting listening,and the "stick"(From childhood, I often fall into a trance,even talking to someone once,fail,and not remember what they talked about,not always but often,hence the confusion,I am constantly in itself,an escape FROM REALITY?????HIDING IN YOURSELF????AND MYOPIA AS AN ESCAPE FROM REALITY???
)and again,the picture,I am small(about 5 years)with his mother,scared,and walks in the room angry father swears that the throws and clearly so"YOU BESTALKOVY PEOPLE do NOT KNOW how".......I raise my hand,get on stage,speak vision before auditoria,fear,inside, the wave is what fills your head and hands,I was shaking,very much want to cry(I feel like I see myself from the side,small) on face child mask and I couldn't cry,something is not given(father's bonus March,you're a man,and men don't cry),but started crying about 30 people from auditorii....And finally I realized.in me throughout my childhood directly and indirectly hammered, YOU don'T KNOW how,BESTOLKOVY MAN."All this against the backdrop of fear and internal psycho-physical stress.....It turns out the Circuit(but without the scientist's cat),1.BACKGROUND(INNER TENSION,FEAR)WHEN dealing WITH the FATHER-DIRECT AND INDIRECT SUGGESTION are one and the same,I don'T KNOW how-lack of confidence IN THEMSELVES AND THEIR abilities(I don'T KNOW how)-IRRESPONSIBILITY....So, roughly, you can be creative "castration"from my own father,and then half your life blaming yourself for failing to get the result.In the process of realizing the above, there were the strongest flares of aggression,anger at father etc. Opened kanalchiki and "flowed"....The question arose what to do with all this????Well,of course,was to forgive my father in a trance and on paper(stopped sweating-what,how and why ,eyes closed,relaxed and forward).Partially and for a time worked,but mainly Fig.Began to communicate on this subject-suggest a hypnotherapist.Yes,I agree,but to find a good hypnotherapist is almost how to find a mentor(a serious question)).By the way,if anyone has access to the standing of a hypnotherapist(now located in the capital),I would be very grateful.Got into Ericksonian hypnosis,it is very interesting but....Actually "accidentally"caught meditation Oleg Gadetsky on the topic of forgiveness from the parents,supplied,tuned and...I don't remember when in my life I was crying(as a child and what not),simply because I was FLOODED-about 20 MINUTES ALL went OUT...Drove the stomach,shortage of air,he could not breathe,as crouched and squeezed,like a sponge.Woke up,the whole t-shirt and shorts damp and there was a lot of mucus from the nose and mouth,had to be washed.But most importantly,I realized that I was given in childhood love,fatherly love I never felt,and most importantly, I was not allowed to develop and Express love to him,he is my FATHER,a parent,surely such a need existed.....and now there in my opinion.I understand that it is the same as I do,the wounded animal with a crippled psyche.It just didn't feel father's love(and indeed, the family had 7 children,do the kids love impossible to satiate)...he was not given the knowledge how to Express love to their children...he did not see and did not feel it.Certainly he brought to the family model of behavior adopted from his grandfather.Here is the KARMA(nothing supernatural).I wept,apparently,most of the grievances and fears.associated with his father.And when I realized that it is the same as I am,I FORGAVE HIM and I think I had begun to feel the beginnings of a long-forgotten feeling-love for the father....Suddenly during the meditation there was a sense that the father is ill(he had leukemia of the blood)because of my childhood,or rather the roots of diseases have a psychosomatic cause,from childhood.And then I came across meditation"EXPLORER",listened,and although most of that was uncomfortable(I was literally "broken",and then had a headache)I felt that this beneficent meditation,and the author immediately there was a trust.I was wondering if I could talk to this person.And now I'm here
Now to my questions.Tell me,Andrew,I"break"for 4 day while listening to "Explorer"-is this normal???I have the feeling that I can't find a comfortable position of the body and there is a certain feeling of irritation.Based on the above,what else would you recommend to work and what can you advise in terms of personal development???I will appreciate any advice.Even before I got to your site I managed to pick up a list of affirmations and goals(not yet caught up with the difference between them?),was somewhat rough and crude,but inside I was boiling and these affirmations are compiled on the basis of the foregoing.I will be very glad to hear that,in your opinion,is true,and that you can adjust.1.I know how to make enough for his success.2.I accept the world around them and themselves in this world.3.I'm confident in themselves and their powers.;.4.I am calm and levelheaded person.5.I am a responsible person(like something else came up)6.All positive, conceived by me,comes to pass(happens).7.I am optimistic and cheerful person.8.The thoughts I izyaslau accurately,consistently,clearly and intelligibly.9.I have enough time for successful self-realization.10.I'm happy to bring the matter to its logical conclusion.11.I am a successful man.12.I make on the people around me nice(great)impression and inspire(sounds fishy to me)confidence.13.I realized my purpose-I am actively implement ordained(And how else??)in life I am happy and satisfied with my life.14.I have good health,all systems and organs of my body function fully and perfectly cope with their functions.p.s.During tamping the screen rolled 3 times,again, cried and went through the nose, mouth mucus.
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