Recently learned about MM. On fire,wanted to buy. BUT WHAT YOU ANSWER TO THIS:
http://www.dreamlight.ru/site/node/30 Alexey (Sam)
The day before YESTERDAY, some sort of dog, a bulldog with a mouth Ala-excavator grabs my whole arm in its mouth and says:"look at your other arm, or I'll bite you this, count to three." and so brazenly looking me in the eye begins to count. then I Wake up. And still clearly feel her teeth on his arm and hear a voice.
YESTERDAY half the night running around with one friend in a dream and explained to her that it was a dream, not a reality. Moreover, it was explained, and he never realized.Speaking of this chip, I already have someone read it. thought it was a joke, is really this can be.Miracles-a-a-a-a-a : )
TODAY Dreamed that I lay down on the bed and trying to relax, what would ,you know, log in to the OS. And then my ears began to make noise, had the feeling that I'm somewhere fly away. And the feeling of flight as the waves, palletes, it is omitted. And besides, I didn't see anything around, absolute darkness, even when the eyes are opened.But not at all scary. Then feel like as if he woke up. But still somewhere flying. So he lay, eyes did not open. Then some muck slapped on the hand, opened my eyes and I can not understand whether I sleep or not. Was in the dark to consider your - hands kind of floating. Turned on the light-you will not swim. If their dog did not bite where I go. Went out drank. Came back, lay down, and can't understand, and if I'm. In General, the brutal glitch. And fell asleep.
... have talked to many "meditators" different currents all reached the same...
I have been meditating for one year, and very hard, four hours a day, because I bought into "spiritual label". By nature I am an idealist, wanted to believe all these fables. The meditator should repeat the mantra and "focus" on the center of the forehead (there is a "third eye" - exit to the spiritual world). Over time I learned to see the inner light, very high brightness and power, white, orange, yellow, etc. During the vision of this light I felt absolutely happy as never in my life; I thought I felt the presence of some "loving substance" or "beings of light" that loves me like no one else in the world didn't love me.
Next (as soon as my "roof" has moved down more and more) I began to see the luminous face of my guru. Physical (real guru) said that the meditator with "a pure soul and good karma" will soon come into contact with the "inner guru", who will lead him to God in the "homeland of the soul", where we all "descended". I became what is called, "baldet", fly their own hallucinations. For example, stand holding the handle with the guru at the shore of the ocean, and it is not water, but light... And so there is good that can not describe, and the "inner guru" is so beautiful and kind and loving, just no words...
I remembered all my childhood, to the smallest detail, right down to what I was wearing when I was playing in the sandbox in kindergarten, I remembered that the light I had seen in childhood, but then over the years it's gone. Of course, then I found that very touching, I even more believe in all this...
Importantly, in a year of occupations I could no longer live a normal life, it was hard to focus at work, hard at all to do something, because constantly I saw this light, loving face of the guru or his eyes (one, not two). Well, how to live when "out there" in this world, so good, but here, in this world, it is also necessary to work and no one doesn't like.
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The worst thing - I often wanted to commit suicide this desire was very strong. Here I really was frightened for myself. I have fear to climb the stairs, because I thought I would jump down and all the suffering in this world end!
After weighing all the "pros" and "cons", I decided to stop to meditate.
It's been a year since then, as I meditate, exactly a year... and the light I see so far, "the urge to go there," experience very often, a "breaking" occur.
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From the medical literature, I learned that "happiness" during meditation is caused by secretion of brain endorphins, and that during meditation the brain is (oddly enough) in a very stressed state, and by such exertion afterwards headache (which I have very often this year, despite the fact that I have never suffered from headaches).
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For happiness in meditation, you pay such a of desperation in normal life, what to live do not want. Yes, it felt good to meditate, but when your happy hormones will end, for a couple of days you will be Oh-Oh-Oh-very bad. And so on, until a new dose... a Vicious circle of alcoholics and drug addicts. Choose for yourself...
The MENTALITY I HAVE, AND so WEAK...<
once,inexperience and youth 
